I’m Standing On His Word

Despite How I Feel

Oh what a trial I have been going through. I have had the hardest time focusing on seeing the good and thinking positive despite the negative circumstances all around me.

I was so excited about getting new flooring after 23 years.  It has been a literal nightmare.  We chose a company that had excellent reviews and they gave us fair pricing.  Then the trials began. They promised the installation would begin a week to ten days after the order was placed. That was not even a close estimate.  A month after the order, was when it actually began.

They promised a 3 day installation.  We were leaving on vacation the 4th day so we really needed to hold to that timetable.  Well the first day, the workers showed up for exactly 3.5 hours. They said they had car trouble. I began to fret, knowing they could never finish if this was going to be a pattern.

The 2nd day they showed up at noon and claimed that the floor was very unlevel and they were not going to fix it since it wasn’t in the budget. What? We were paying to have our floor removed and replaced, period. I never call and complain about things, never. I was nearing such frustration though that I called the company and told them what was happening.  They agreed that it was terrible customer service and told me they would pay the workers to level the floor.  It took them the entire day. It was the end of the 2nd day and I had exactly no flooring. Instead my house was nearing disaster mode and my stress level was escalating. The third day they put down the mudroom floor and half of my kitchen.  They broke moldings in each room so the repair cost was escalating.

It was now Thursday and we were supposed to leave that morning on vacation. We agreed to stay and leave that evening instead so they could finish the kitchen and one bathroom. Early in the afternoon they told me they had broken the toilet whole removing it. Then I noticed my refrigerator had 2 dents in it.

My dog was not feeling well either. I struggled with such anxiety about leaving. We left that night and the entire time I was gone I just battled with such worry and anxiety. I dreaded coming home to this huge mess that awaited me and yet I wanted desperately to take care of my ailing dog.

Last night at church we sang that song “Standing on the promises”, and I began to realize that I not only had an expectation for the Lord to answer my desperate pleas, but He also had an expectation of me! Yes, I was terribly stressed, yes I needed to have peace about my trials but I also needed to have faith that all was well. My situation was not only known by my Heavenly Father but the answers lay in His very capable hands.

I felt the slightest bit of encouragement deep inside as I drove home.  I don’t know exactly how this trial will come to an end but I know it was for a reason and my faith has been sorely tested and I have come up short.  I want to stand on His promises and claim them by faith! The Lord is expecting me to stand and claim those precious promises.